The Dictator has taken possession of your mind.
You know what is freaking creepy? How much we sound like little Hitlers when we are talking to ourselves.
I did not fully realize this until last week when I started monitoring what I told myself when I did something that I have been trying not to do for a while.
It goes like this (this is the weight loss edition — in honor of tomorrow’s class! You can insert thing-that-you-do-that-you-wish-you-didn’t-do HERE):
- Write down the things you tell yourself after you overeat. ALL of the things (you do it now, before you keep reading, because it works better that way).
- Now, how does hearing those things make you feel? After each sentence, write down how it makes you feel (you may be a lil’ surprised by some of the answers… sad/frustrated and excited, for instance…). Pause at each sentence and see what emotions come up for you.
- When you feel that way, how do you feel about food (or that-you-do-that-you-wish-you-didn’t-do)? Do you want to do the thing/eat more, or less?
Interesting, right????
Because, what if you committed to not beating yourself up, and just watching where in your life you beat yourself up?? Wouldn’t that be interesting?
I beat myself for a handful of reasons, including:
- Eating when I’m not hungry (yes, even I do this sometimes)
- Not being productive enough
- Not BEING PRODUCTIVE ENOUGH, already, Gay!?!
And other things, too.
What’s interesting is that I’ve found that, I am eating/being unproductive TO beat myself up. It’s a lovely little side bogie distraction from a lot of things that I don’t want to feel or deal with.
Which, as I know very well, makes nothing go away. I can hide under the sheets, that is totally fine…
…but, in this life, I’ve committed to working through my junk and showing you how to work through yours, too.
What do you beat yourself up about, ehhhh? (we all SO do this… just start being curious about it… I believe it’s a great back door into some lovely happiness waiting for you.)
Is there a spot between Steps 2 and 3 kind of like the bleeding of colors in a tie-dye? i think i am there.
There is loads of overlap between the squares! You’ll be having ideas hitting you about some area of your life that’s changing, taking some actions and having even more ideas… bigger actions…
Also, we go back to mini-square 1′s often when we are in square 3. We’ll make a move to create our dream, and it won’t go as planned, so back to square 1 to let go of that piece of the plan, dream up a new solution in square 2, and actually do it in square 3.